Friday, September 11, 2009

Hipocritical Friends....Got One?

Have you ever had a friend tell you that you "need to do this/that" and "don't do this/that?" Then, later, you see them doing just the opposite of what they were telling you? Well, I had this happend to me today. I can deal with it, however, this friend did it in front of others and it really ticked me off, because she made the issue which is something innocent sound very shady. It made me really upset, and I held my tongue, but ooohhh I really wanted to let her have it. I felt like she was trying to be my mother instead of a friend. Sometimes, people I know get so jealous of something about you, and you will not even know what it is. They will give you the "evil eye" in a heartbeat. This is why for the longest time, I didn't try to keep or make friends because they all turn on you at some point. If they feel you are going to have something good/happy happen to you, they try to prevent it from happening or by making you feel guilty about being happy. I really can't stand women at times. We can be some of the most jealous, manipulative, backbitting people that corrupt society as it is today. Why can't we all just get along?

Friday, July 10, 2009

What are hospitals Good For ???

I decided to go to the hospital today with 5 major symptoms...and 3 are noticeable without doubt. I left the hospital ticked off and refused to sign the paperwork at discharge. I was bleeding, like I have for a week now...can't be ignored, and the doctor tells me that I'm "just fine" and that "it is just in my head". WHAT??? I am bleeding! I am not bleeding from my imagination! She continued to say that all the tests came back negative, and no sign of anything.

Well, I may not have a Doctorate Degree, but I know that if someone is bleeding there IS A REASON. After arguing this with her, she gave me two prescriptions. Well, if I am ok, then why do I need medicine. Who in their right mind would take medicine if they were OK? Then, I would be stupid to take medicine for something that the doctor is ignoring. Hospitals just want to push medicine on you like it is a bandaid without figuring out what is causing it. I wasted my time, energy, and money I don't have to leave with the same knowledge I went with.

I have officially lost confidence in hospitals. They said that hospitals are just for emergencies. I think that if I am getting so dizzy that I am falling down, I've been bleeding for a week, chest pains, difficulty breathing off and on, and swollen eyes IS kinda an emergency! Do I have to have this happen to me while driving and hurt someone before it becomes one...then it would probably just be for the other person! Do doctors understand what preventative care means?

I got upset with the doctor and nurse and refused to sign my paperwork, and was giving them a piece of my mind, then they had the nerve to ask me if I ever felt I was a danger to myself or others. What the hell kind of question is that !?! Just because I call them out on not doing anything they want to mark me off as "crazy"? I then yelled at them for trying to put this back on me...and that I wanted them to do more tests. Then they told me I was discharged, and would have to register back in again. WHAT? I just left...they will not get a dime from me for anything. AGGGHHH.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Instead of Random Acts of Kindness, I Get Violence

I am beginning to feel as if I have a sign on me that says "Attack Me, it's ok" because I have been physically attacked 4 times in the last 4 months. Is there a schedule or something that I don't know about?

The last one happened this past Sunday about one hour just before sunset (Maghreb). I went to my friend's house to pick them up. We were going to go to see Yusuf Estes at a masjid about 30 minutes from there. When we pulled out of the apartment parking, and approached the road, we had to wait for traffic to let us go. I kept looking to the left for traffic since I needed to turn left and had to cross the rightbound traffic. There was a African American couple walking towards the driveway and during the time we were waiting, they got closer and closer.

After they got to a close distance the man began yelling profanities at me. He told me that "I needed to go back to my country, and I was "in their way". (I didn't pull out in front of them, they were far away when I pulled up. All they had to do was walk behind me anyway.) I tried to just ignore the man, but I decided to pull into the median between the opposing traffic to wait to turn left from there just to get away from this ugly personality.

We had the windows to the car down to release the hot air trapped in the car because it was so hot outside. While patiently waiting in the median, I was shocked to see that the man took it upon himself to walk across the street to the passenger side of my car and was still yelling his profanities. My friend told the man to "Just go on your way and leave us alone", then in response he hit the door of the car in his rage and telling us that "we don't tell him what to do!" After hitting the car again, my friend openened the door to make him stop and the man tried to start a physical fight. I yelled for my friend to get back in the car as I was trying to roll up the windows.

After my friend got back in the car, I looked around only to see that other cars had stopped to watch the fiasco, but no one ever called police. What if someone got hurt? It really saddens me about how ignorant and pathetic people can be. This man was telling me and my friend to both go back to "our countries"......but we are both AMERICANS! I was born and raised American and converted to Islam 3 years ago. Just because I wear a scarf (hijab) does not automatically mean that I am from somewhere else. It is just as if I were to tell this (black African American) to "go back to his country". It is just stupid!

Anyway, alhamdulilah, no one was hurt and my car wasn't either, just a scratch. May Allah give him his rewards.